I’m a human. At least for now. the dreams i have dont escape me but i escape them. sadness boils down in me but i have a joy. im traped on this planet. even my room. i want to leave both but im not able. fishing for words i pull out a note. “We live on the world, the world travels around the sun and the sun is light. The sun burns giving us light. like a cosmic camfire for planets. what are they roasting? me.” When i was little i loved technology. I wanted a phone and laptop. my dad said they are expensive but now most use them. how much further will technology go? will it destroy us? a dream killing you is the biggest irony. Dont we dream when we are asleep? when were dead? i suppose if dreams kill, everyone has been dead all along. Now hear a story, a story of me and my dreams. There will be nightmares, there will be grief, but lets hope love prevails as it should.

the night was young i was out getting high with friends where we were is unknown all i knew is if i had weed, i had friends and all i wanted was friends. I had traveled to the capital on the train. my stomach turning i was both excited and nervous. I was known as a stoner. something i was happy to considered as such. Drugs, drugs and more drugs. I basically worshipped them. But yes they had already caused pain (ill tell you later). that night i had an epiphany. I would die. I burned myself with my ciggarette a reminder that pain proves people, or at least thats what it promised me. Tho Jesus suffered was he proved? more pain was on him than me. regardless life does not lie. It is what it is. Jesus is the king and the king loves truth. If the truth is known by everyone its known by the seeker first. They propagate it. Their work saves many, so seek truth and knowlegde with your words “Dont lean on your own understanding, but in all your ways submit to him”. “Uh yeah im not doing that i want my life i dont want to be a preacher i feel shame about the word, I want my own life” Young Daniel confirmed. “but if you can show me true love i will accept it” a challenge sure but not without merrit. Love is always there to win such challenges. 

when i was seventeen i left all freinds behind even my cat. i worked on my grandparents farm. People need people. but something had happend to me. a crushed soul. i needed a blade. I needed release. the world pushed my fear on me. why? it hates me. on the subject of hate. where was love? very close. on the farm i found what love sought for me: salvation. I’m still lost. but im lost with the one who knows the way. I still need drugs. Yes. as soon as i turned eighteen is was tabacco and wine in my basket. somking, drinking. loneley but fulfilling times. there i saw myself divided. i want two things. friends and money. peace and reason. love comes to those who seek it. just seek with your whole heart. say “love, love, love. teach me. i choose you. not evil. you are real and you have the right to rule. for without you there is nothing. Love, love, love.” a prayer not wasted is the prayer that is meant. “I hate you love you will never rule me. i piss on you, You’re a pig. I will make it impossible to save Daniel.” enemies of love say the strangest things, but who is this voice? who insults God? Daniel? maybe. but the God want you to choose him or not than to be on a fence about him all your life. so choose. enemy or friend? choose.

Here’s a dream or a fantasy. you choose. I’m walking, then driving, then on a boat, then and airship. The worlds forever changed and i have prevailed. The right path found us and we it. We? the most important part. With no “we” its all for naught. I have no “we” but im hopeful. Let it happen. let it transpass. I wake up alone, i go to sleep alone. In the dream it is not so. let me weave this story: the world was wrong, but thats not the end because the rightouss are not proud or stubborn though strict they have rest though beleiving they are critical. You seek anothers life, a life you have no right to. Yes heres the nightmare. You give an ounce of worth to evil, you let it brand you, you let it rule you and live in your chambers. You will surely suffer not for a day, not for a week. Forever. that fear grasped me. I lived in fear of the God i loved and yet then i was right. not now. now the fear is gone and so is my integrity. it left when i had no fear of the enemy. ok maybe not all my integrity but the fear kept me in line and i need it back but it wont return. “Leave the path of riches, leave the path of seeking your own glory and live poor, live seeking the good of others.” maybe the world we live in aint so bad? wrong. Love this life: loose, hate this life: gain. at least i tell myself that. “I have the right to loose my life, its mine, Its not my fault i live. It was forced on me” OK selfish Daniel. You wouldnt say that if you had self value, or even just saw value as important. “why do i suffer, I didnt choose to be born.” Yes you didnt. But someone did and he has the right. The world turns for its makers sake, The sun burns for its makers sake. Humans live, suffer and rejoice for, yes, their maker. What do you gain from being life anti life? Just remember young Daniel: Someone suffered, someone died and rejoiced. He payed for you. please never forget that.

So whats to say? I’m a human. I sought self gratification though it failed it still lives with me. I ran away from life. True life and love found me. Some hate my dream but regardless i still live in hope. I could die tomorrow but i will die valueing what God gave me, pain or love. Follow through to the end before the end follows through to you. the world is travelling, the world rests, the world dies, but the world will not keep me trapped forever. Evil runs through all of us, but we will overcome evil through the messiah as he conquered it first. Life grows and life dies. Evil reaps what it sows likewise Good. Evil sows evil. If you sow eternal evil thats what you reap. So sow good reader, and you’ll surely reap it. Like a plant seeks the sun, lets seek the Son, Its how we grow into a product that is worthy of life. Jesus is God, God bless.